when you've got nothing else...

it's actually been quite a while since i've posted a blog. i apologize, although the two of you that actually follow my blog probably don't give a shit. :) tonight, was a good night. just like all the rest of my nights here in mankato. i moved out on august 19th, and although i miss my waseca home and friends and family, i absolutely love it here. i have come to find that making new friends would not be as hard as i thought it would be, and i have a group of people who is my kato family, and i love them all so much. lately i've been feeling a lot of pressure from my family to change who i am. not gonna lie to you, i've been drinking here in kato. i'm in college, get off my balls. it's not like i'm an alcoholic, i just like to party with my friends. no big d. but my family seems to think i've changed completely, and it's sadly just not the truth. i moved out for a reason. i wanted to make my own choices and live life for myself for once instead of constantly living up to someone else's standards. i'm not a loser, contrary to what my loving twin sister thinks. fortunately for me, i know the truth behind her words. she used to drink, and smoke and do whatever else. so it's not like i'm the only one who has ever done it. i'm just sick of feeling worthless to all my family. i guess at the end of the day, i'm glad my kato family has still got my back. and if my real family refuses to accept me for the way i am, they will. truth? yes. harsh? maybe. do i care. hell yeah i do. but it's just the way it is i guess. i love you jamie, grant, sammy, paul, allen, kristina, megan, alonna. <3